NY

Let the New Year begin!

About Responsibility

Responsibility is not only the matter of duty of the consequences but also very much a subject of a preventative act; it is responsible people who can help their environment to be safe and have the future.

Fate

What a painful fate to be a butterfly on MG Road.

Lotus and Sleep

When the lotus opens up in the morning, I am still asleep.

People

We get through the toughest of life situations. Because we have to.

Thankful

Grandmothers

It seems to me that grandmothers are there to indulge children of their children.
We are waiting.

WHERE IS MY BABY?

Master's and PhD

Housewives and mothers for Master's and PhD.

Family

Family should be a place where each member feels creative, safe and free.

PEACE

“Peace is achieved through dialogue, with conflicts considered, with the realization of one’s mistake and forgiveness available.”

“Peace can be worked out only where humility resides. Humility must be the foundation.”

“Only when you hear me, and when you get a chance to share the deep concerns and motives of your heart, only then we can have peace, considering that acceptance already is given.”

“When the peace is abounding the fields bloom, the hearts rejoice and there seems to be hope for everything, for yet another day.”

“Peace is not something given; we cannot take it for granted. Peace is a work out – we come together and agree to maintain it, even in our differences.”

“What is the cost of peace? Why it should be the hundred thousands of lives? It should be achieved, but not at human costs.”

“The greatest gift is peace. With peace we can go on, even when it seems very hard, we still can bring the change. Peace will enable us.”

“Peace flows out of justice, one should respect the boundary of the other, and those boundaries should help all – to self-realization with best for “the other” in mind.”

“Never undermine human dignity, for when it is violated - peace ceases. It is turmoil.”

“Grant us peace and in peace we will create.”

“If I could have but found - peace of the mind, of the soul and the land. These are my desires.”

Diwali

I have a hard time appreciating the firecrackers.

"Нам дворцов заманчивые своды не заменят никогда свободы..."

Из Бременских Музыкантов

Etty Hillesum

"One should want to be a balm on many wounds."

"Never give up, never escape, take everything in, and perhaps suffer, that's not too awful either, but never, never give up."

"If one finds the strength to deal with small things, one finds it to deal with the large ones as well."

Growing Older

I wish I had someone to teach me how gracefully to grow older.

One Woman Eccentricity

It was long after the midnight when my husband came to bed, all hopeful to finally get to sleep after the day of seeing people, arranging dinner and putting baby to sleep.
When I touch him on the shoulder, he still kindly turns and asks, "What is it?"
"Can we talk?"
"Now?"
"Well, yes. When I talk to you I get to know you better."
"Is it? Well, maybe you can talk to me while I sleep then?"

Hmm...that never occurred to me.
And I thought, "Maybe I should get to know myself better."

Trapped In A Bottle

How true it is when they say that crowds never secure a man from loneliness.
A human can scream and shout for help out of despair, only to be like a beetle trapped in a bottle, where it is left to the horror of its own wounded fate, resembling into the echo of an inevitable death, while the outside, all glittery and gay, passes the pretense of serenity and sanity, outrages upon the simplicity of a sincere heart and desecrates the ideals of purity and charity.

Many of us, at least once, get into a bottle and scream, and some make it out, while others find their resting place inside the suffocating bottle.

The Christ of the Indian Road
by E. Stanly Jones

Parts from the chapter The Concrete Christ. I quote parts of it, the rest you can read in the book.
“Jesus the mystic appeals to India, the land of mysticism. But Jesus the mystic was amazingly concrete and practical. He taught but he did not speculate. He never used such words as “perhaps,” “maybe,” “I think so.” Even his words had concrete feeling about them. They fell upon the soul with authority of certainty.
He did not discourse on the sacredness of motherhood- he suckled as a babe at his mother’s breast, and that scene has forever consecrated motherhood.
He did not discourse on the dignity of labor- he worked at the carpenter’s bench and his hands were hard with the toil of making yokes and plows, and this forever makes the toil of the hands honorable.
As he came among men he did not try to prove the existence of God-he brought him. He lived in God and men looking upon his face could not find it within themselves to doubt God.
He did not argue, as Socrates, the immortality of the soul – he raised the dead.
He did not teach in a didactic way about the worth of children – he put his hands upon them and blessed them and setting one in their midst tersely said, “Of such is the kingdom of God,” and he raised them from the dead.
He did not argue that God answers prayer- he prayed, sometimes all night, and in the morning ‘the power of the Lord was present to heal.”
He did not paint in glowing colors the beauties of friendship and the need for human sympathy – he wept at the grave of his friend.
He did not teach in the schoolroom manner the necessity of humility –he“ girded himself with a towel and knelt down and washed his disciple’s feet.
He did not prove how pain and sorrow in the universe could be compatible with the love of God- he took on himself at the cross everything that spoke against the love of God, and through that pain and tragedy and sin showed the very love of God.
He did not discourse on the beauty of love- he loved.
He did not merely tell us that death need have no terror for us- he rose from the dead, and lo, now the tomb glows with light.
Many teachers of the world have tried to explain everything- they changed little or nothing. Jesus explained little and changed everything.
Many teachers have tried to diagnose the disease of humanity- Jesus cures it.
He did not go into long discussions about the Way to God and the possibility of finding him- he quietly said to men, “I am the Way.””

Rain

This rain, like the unleashed dogs, ran on the streets, biting the passers-by, making them rush and jump over the puddles, all wet.

I like rains, but now I appreciate my warm home and the big French window.

Yes, We Are Ready For The Game!

Thoughts

Like the autumn leaves plucked by the wind from a tree, my thoughts, before they could become words, were thrown into the silence, like the rain wet ground, where they got stuck and never became the creating force, they did not dance that last autumn dance, like the leaves, right before they get stamped on.

No Other Agenda

I think that new-born babies, when they are 2-3 months (and probably for some time), give the most sincere smiles, when they do so, they really mean it; and when they cry - they also really mean it.

Relationship

How important it is to have a good foundation in a relationship.
So the father and the son have it based on a burp. One needs it almost every hour, the other can help with it.
Friends?
Friends!

Small City

I miss the simplicity of a small city.

Family

It is a place where they accept and forgive you, no matter what. You are always welcome there.

P.S. I miss my family.

My Baby

Today I let the sun kiss you on your cheek.
You are our favorite.

I am looking forward to...

Eating chocolates, reading one of the books my sister brought for me, to a good night sleep, and to my baby's smile.

MY FLOWERS

Birthday

My birthday wish this year - to get some nice good sleep.

Responsibilities

Each member of our family received its own strictly defined responsibilities: dad - takes burping walks, grandmother - gives morning baths, mom - feeds.
The whole family is busy.

Our Collection

We did our job of drinking apple juice well, and this is the collection of free containers that we got with each juice pack we bought. I think I finished all juices in Bangalore that had this offer!

Unfolding the Rosebud

It is only a tiny rosebud,
A flower of God's design;
But I cannot unfold the petals
With these clumsy hands of mine.

The secret of unfolding flowers
Is not known to such as I.
God opens this flower so sweetly,
In my hands it will fade and die.

If I cannot unfold a rosebud,
This flower of God's design,
Then how can I think I have wisdom
To unfold this life of mine?

So I'll trust in Him for His leading
Each moment of every day.
I will look to him for His guidance
Each step of the pilgrim way.

The pathway that lies before me,
Only my Heavenly Father knows.
I'll trust Him to unfold the moments,
Just as He unfolds the rose.

- Helen Steiner Rice

Latest Accomplishment

If someone would ask what is my latest accomplishment I would answer that it is cutting my toe nails over my 37 centimeters tummy.

Rescue

When the stretching and kicking become unbearable - snickers and lemon tart help!

My Luxury

It is a luxury to have four pillows in my bed and to use them all at the same time!
Better nights.

Not Worth It

And yet some foods are not worth of my heartburn.

P.S. I was disappointed with Richies biryany

The Whole Of The Universe

My tummy became the whole of the universe for me, after my husband.

The Boys

The boys ate all the cookies!

Thats How Snowy It Was. In Bangalore.

They Look Good On The Picture

Russian chappatis...

Away

Its been a week now that I am away from vegetable sales man, cockroaches, ants, lizards and neighboring dogs.
It feels a little bit lonely.

Silly Wish

I wish I could charge mosquitoes and cockroaches monthly rent.
They are impudent and that is what I don't like about them.

The Hole In The Wall

Well, I don't know, but it looks like I will get a hole on my head very soon if the construction will be going on with the same intensity. I think along with dogs on the streets all over the place, construction is another trend here in Bangalore. It does not matter what hole on a wall you have, they will bang it for a few days and you will get a place that you can rent out soon.
I need a break.

Me And A Football

Lately I feel like a football, being blown and stretched and kicked.

In the Green

Hunting

Old houses. Old kitchens. Streets with barking dogs. Lots of money.
New houses. Clean kitchens. Streets with the trees. Even more of money.
The hunt goes on.

Creation

Exra-Large

We are growing from medium to large and extra-large size.

The Beauty In The Dark

Have you ever tried to beautify yourself while the electricity was off? Well, it's not a good idea. You will be better off relying on your nature given look, lest others be scared and scattered.

Several days ago my husband and I were invited for a dinner, and the lights in the house had to go off the time we were getting ready; holding a candle in one hand, and an eye pencil in the other, near the mirror is a poor idea - I almost burnt my hair and pocked the eye.

Though they say that beauty demands sacrifice, it might be wiser to let others beautify the evening and yourself enjoy the dinner and the wind's play with hair.

No Way To Escape

It seems that dogs on Indian streets are almost like a superstition, a token of a good luck, they find dwelling place at any other corner, near a house gate, on a construction site.

During the hour of the day they rest in the shadow of a tree or under a parked car, and through the deep of the night, united into gangs of seven and eight, they roam the streets, disturbing innocent sleepers.

There is no way to escape them.

My New Disabilities

Every week I discover something new.
Now I can't put a sock on my left foot. Somehow it just does not happen, my leg does not bend, or my tummy is right on the way.

My Friend Kezia when in Kansas City

They Need No Reason

Neither the auto drivers nor the dogs need a reason.
The first honks, the other barks.
Noisy days and sleepless nights.

Assimilation

It is funny but I started volunteerly to put green chilies in my cooking.

Pregnancy

Super sensitive hearing.

Secret

When the food starts falling on the tummy and leaves the stains, the secret is no longer a secret.
The baby is growing!